My friend wrote this...I feel for her...And this is a PICASSO...
HE MADE LOVE TO ME…
NOT JUST PHYSICALLY…
MY CELLS REACTED TO HIS TOUCH…
TO HIS VOICE…I KNEW HE WAS FOR REAL…
WE SPENT EVERY SECOND WE COULD AFFORD TO SPEND TOGETHER…
HE WAS MY LIFE AND I WAS HIS…
TOTALLY HIS…
AND HE WAS MINE AS WELL…TOTALLY MINE…
WE MADE A MISTAKE IN THE THREOS OF PASSION…
WE IGNORED THE USE OF THAT LITTLE RUBBER…
THAT LITTLE BIT OF RUBBER THAT WRECKED OUR RELATIONSHIP…
I WAS A WEEK LATE…
I KNEW I WAS PREGNANT…
HE STOOD BY ME…CLEANED MY TEARS…PROMISED TO BE WITH ME…
ASKED ME FOR A LITTLE TIME TO SORT OUT A FEW THINGS…
I WAITED…HE SAID NOTHING…
HE DOESN’T SAY MUCH WHEN HE IS THINKING…
I WAITED…WEEKS PASSED…THE SILENCE WAS KILLING ME…
I SAW HIM EVERY SINGLE DAY…WE TALKED ABOUT EVERYTHING…
SAVE OUR BABY GROWING IN MY WOMB…
ONE MORNING, AFTER JOGGING, I TOOK A BATH AND A TAXI…
I WENT TO THE ISLAND AND I DID IT…I HAD AN ABORTION…
I CRIED SO HARD THAT THE DOCTOR MADE ME CALL HIM…
I HAD PLANNED TO SAY THAT MY PERIOD JUST SHOWED…
HE CAME AND CALLED HIS BOSS AND SAID HE NEEDED THE DAY OFF…
THAT I WAS VERY ILL…
HE CRIED…HE CRIED…HE ASKED ME WHY I DIDN’T GIVE HIM TIME…
HE HAD ASKED FOR TIME…
HE HAD PROMISED TO BE WITH ME NO MATTER WHAT…
I ASKED HIM TO PUT HIMSELF IN MY SHOES…
FOUR WEEKS…I WAS SCARED TO DEATH…AND HE HAD SAID NOTHING…
HE CRIED…AND CRIED AND BROUGHT OUT AN ENVELOPE…
THE ENVELOPE THAT MADE ME REALISE I DIDN’T DESERVE HIS LOVE…
HE HAD SOLD ALL THE SHARES HE HAD…EVERYTHING…
ALL LIQUID…
SO HE COULD PRESSURIZE OUR FAMILIES…
INTO HAVING A FAST WEDDING BECAUSE HE HAD PROMISED…
TO LOVE ME FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE…
I WEPT FOR NOT TRUSTING HIM…
I WEPT FOR MY LOST CHILD…OUR LOST CHILD…
HE LEFT ME…
FOUR MONTHS LATER…
SEPTEMBER 30TH…
THE DAY I MURDERED MY CHILD AND OUR LOVE…
I SEE A CHILD…
I CAN’T MAKE OUT IF IT IS A BOY OR GIRL…
JUST A CHILD…
WITH HIS LISP…
AND MY NOSE…
IT HAS TAKEN ME FIVE YEARS TO FORGIVE MYSELF…
TO FORGIVE HIM…
WE WERE YOUNG…
FAR TOO YOUNG TO BE SO IN LOVE…
I KNOW HE IS READING YOUR BLOG…
I KNOW HE KNOWS IT’S ME…
I KNOW HE STILL LOVES ME…
HE KNOWS I STILL LOVE HIM…
FORGIVE ME…FORGIVE ME…FORGIVE ME…
