The Divide

I was told by a man that there is a line between being a Wife and a Girlfriend.
He says I am a Girlfriend.
His reasons:
I go out without telling him where exactly I am going.
I talk to too many men.
I do not reassure him of his position in my life.
He says he is a husband.
He doesn't tell me where he is going.
He introduced me as his woman...that should make me feel special...yet it doesn't.
I will be a wife if i pretend that i am going somewhere and I go elsewhere.
I am a wife if i tell him everytime he feels he needs to hear that I love that I do and not cheat on him.
How can I be with a man who will not trust me?
AIN"T MA FAULT THAT I'M PRETTY....

My October

October is the most eventful month thus far...
I started a relationship that ended as quickly as it started (if I can say it started).
I started work somewhere that I am enjoying the environment and the people.
My friend, Zakari brought me DISTRACTION in form of a corky Hausa man...Corky in an amusing way...

This month, i discovered that there is a thin line between being a girlfriend and being a wife...i am still on the girlfriend side of the divide. I am also making conscious decisions this month that will affect my entire future and my life and I am wondering why I never thought like that before.

My October, is the birth of good things to come...It is the beginning of a new cycle...a cycle that will bring good things...to me and all those around me...AMEN!!!

Me, My blog, My demons

I am ill...
I am being given grief from the most unexpected source.
I hate drugs,but I have no choice.

My blog reflects how I feel...what I feel...my blog is my right to free speech(free typing).My blog is my space to say what I feel like saying..my blog holds my feelings, my hopes, my aspirations...

My blog has my ups and downs...my blog has my thoughts, happy and sad...my blog has me.

Dont visit it if you know you will try to use it to give me grief...I have the right to say what I want to say.

IF YOU DONT LIKE IT...FUCK OFF!!!

My October thus far!!!

With my friend and I setting my sister up with a guy she claims is kinda mad and yet still goes out with him and sends marathon sms with. My older sister's birthday and her preparing to get married (saving my youngest brother the problem of introducing one extra person as his spinster, sorry, sister)my friend's thirtieth and his treating his family and two friends to Italian(I am bush, so I prefer Mr. Biggs..whatever), I am having quiet an interesting month...

I started seeing someone...He is a great laugh...A bit possessive, but not bad enough for me to think that he will pour acid on me...It feels good to know that someone, somewhere is loving you...

The thing is that he is my ex boyfriend's friend.

I have two sisters...their names are Libra and Aqua girl and a neighbour, Sexy. Libra thinks that it is okay for me to see this guy despite the drama that can come about it. Aqua doesn't think I should see him at all, he is friends with my ex who I have drama and history with. Sexy thinks I should, that in fact if I don't, "na from village them take cook me".

We have been on a couple of dates and I like him..He is very nice to me and really what is the worst that can happen? That the relationship will not end up in marriage. And their friends will label me as the girl that was passed between friends...e go pass? dem go beat me? NO!!!!!

We have talked about it because he knows it can put a strain on their friendship, his and my ex. He lost his father a few months ago and my ex boyfriend's mother went with my current's mum to the village...That is to show you how close the families are...

We are willing to try...I am willing to damn what people say...

I have met part of his family...I get along with his brother, who I get to see quite a bit because they are very close.

random ramblings

I am so sorry that I am haven't been updating...
these are the links from my girls blog...
Akuko 1
Akuko 2
Akuko 3
Like I said earlier, she is a better story teller, so read and enjoy.

I got a job, and I know I will enjoy it..Farafina Publishers.